Monday 15 December 2014

The New Girl In Class Ep. 10 - A Walk In The Park


January 12,

It has been a long time since that 'almost kissed' incident. And i know that i haven't updated for quite about a month now. But believe me i was too busy. Now that January has already begun and our final lap for the PMT's are close around, there's no time to fuck around for sure.

A few days back when we were back from the new year weekend's we were welcomed with a test series of 12 tests without even a fu****g single holiday. Now that i am abusing too much doesn't mean that i am angry or something. It's simply that my mind has gone crazy. I mean who has a test on a new year's day? By the way Jasleen and i patched up once again after a nasty fight about me talking to another girl. I just don't get these 'girls' logic at all. I mean maths is much simpler than that even though it's been a long time since i left it cause it gave me the goosebumps whenever i opened the book. The numbers would just jump on me to molest me. I am damn too vulnerable.

First of all, she denied to talk to me, then we became friends, then we almost kissed and then she told me that we should be just friends only. I mean what the fish? Am i a pack of dettol-wipes with which you can wipe your face and also a baby's bum? See i resisted to abuse. Happy now.

Now i don't know what happened to me but during the freezing months of December and beginning of January i got my hands on this awesome heater which kept me warm. I remember that when i was in school we used to put our hands in our underpants to warm them. Jeez! I still think of doing that but that's just seems innocent when you're a child not when you're an adult and that too when you are in your 19's and about to loose your teenage-hood. Some word huh?

There have been some pretty horrible shit back during December when some boys of my hostel/P.G started to smoke weed and cigarettes. It spread like a forest fire and by the beginning on the new year everyone was with a bottle of beer and cigarette stacked in the back of their ears. Holy crap!

Thanks to Jasleen she kept me quite warm during that time so i didn't have to go around searching for something to warm me up. Hey don't force your imagination. She had a heat blower in her PG. My parents came a week back and brought with them a few sweaters. I sometimes doubt if my mom even knows what my age is or she wouldn't bring that red and blue cap and a girls's scarf from my childhood. The sweater is so tight that i think i am wearing one of those sauna belts to flatten my tummy and my mother made sure to make me wear that cap in class. Everyone was laughing but luckily Jasleen found it quite cute.

She was freaking furious after an hour as i was supposed to wear the cap she gifted to me rather than the one my mom brought. Guess i am a mamma's boy and she freaking hates it. I wonder what will happen when i will bring her to my home to meet with my mom. It's like the clash of the titans.

So leaving all that, i was surprised too when my marks sky-rocketed during the test series. I was studying harder than ever and even ignored her whatts-app messages. Ignoring in whatts-app doesn't mean that i didn't reply, but i replied a 'humm'.

In no time i was famous in the institute that i started to feel like a saint to whom everybody would come with their problems. You see boy's don't give a crap but hell a lot of girls came. While solving problems, some of them would make such seductive eye-contact with me that i sometimes felt that i was allured by them. Anyone with a working pair of eye-balls could see that i was blushing. She saw it too.

It was the eve of the last week of January, we were crossing the garden towards our PG when she suddenly broke into tears out in the middle of nowhere. It was around 1:30 pm and a freezing day so the garden was almost empty except for a few people and the lovers. Maybe they thought that it was better to stay inside and make out than staying out in the almost foggy and freezing weather. 

I was out of my mind. She hadn't responded to anything i said while walking and her face was also flushed out , so i thought that she was not feeling well and it was better to keep my mouth shut. But i was totally shocked when she started crying. I held her arm and pulled her aside beneath the tree isolating us from the central area of the garden and the pavement running around it's whole length.

'I think it's over'.....'You don't love me any-more'....'You boys are all like that'.

She was sobbing and banging my chest. Hell, it hurt pretty bad. Its winter and everything is a little sensitive you know. I took out my hankee to wipe her tears when i suddenly realized that it was the one in which i sneezed, wiped my hands on after coming out of toilet and it had not been washed for about a week. Yeah, so i kept it back.

'See you have become so freaking senseless'....'why me? what have i not done for you'...'I loved you so much'.

'I love you too baby'....'Please hush now, why are you crying?'....'Please tell me what's the matter?'

'You want too know what happened?'....'Oh you're such a pervert'...'I should have know'...'How could you?'

Really? I didn't know why she was crying so it was obvious for me to ask the reason. It was just a simple plain question asked properly with proper grammar so even a lay-man could understand what i was saying.

She kept crying and crying that i feared of a crowd gathering there. That's what we like to do. Always interfere in other's business. I tried to hug her but she put on a hard slap on my sweet soft moisturized round cheeks. I had not been slapped since nursery. I was beginning to enter the portal to my childhood memories when another blow brought me back to the present. Then suddenly her slapping and screaming intensity increased.

This time i was infuriated so much that smoke started to arise out of my head. No joke. It really happens during winter when you're sweating. I put my hand around her mouth and screamed ' Shut up!'

Silence.

She calmed down scared of my reaction and i had no idea what the hell i suddenly did. I held her held and told her to look into my eyes.

'Hey look i don't know what you saw or what you interpreted but i just want you to get this into your mind once and for all that i freaking love you. Okay'

Now that moment was really romantic.

I reached out for her lips to kiss her and this time she didn't revolt. Our lips embraced themselves like they were meant to be together. I kissed her slowly that i could feel her soft lips touching against mine. She also went in for it. I could taste the lip gloss she had put on and her breath so refreshing, i remebered the close-up toothpaste commercial with the song 'Paas aao...paas aao...paas aao na...whoaaa'. 

She took my hands from her face and placed it on her hips. Her bag fell from her shoulder as we went deep into eachother. I guess we were kissng for about 3 and a half minutes now. That kiss was so passionate that it could win a MTV Best Kiss awards. I began kissing her neck when she whispered in my ears 'you don't want to do it right here, do you?' 

We both burst out into laughter and i kissed her forehead and we hugged. We were both red hot and sweating that i decided to take off my jacket but when a cold freezing breeze of wind went past me shaking me to my bones, i decided to not be a hero and put it back on.

We held hands and set off towards home.

On my way back she said ' you have a very active libido'.

Guess i have to be docile and suppress the wild beast.

THANKS TO AMARI CHAN FOR THIS WONDERFUL SKETCH: http://fav.me/dhn9d7

Saturday 13 December 2014

When-ever I walk with you, it is the most beautiful time of my day. I just keep looking at you without having any idea of what is going on around me. 

Thursday 11 December 2014

I feel like I am all alone


I am feeling like i am all alone
This darkness is not like before
Someone come and wake me up
Before the darkness captures my heart

I am falling deep not to return
I patiently waited for my turn
But suddenly everything turned upside down
I am filled with thoughts, sure to drown.

I need the helping hand reaching out wide
Grasping me in it's arms and showing me light.
For the barrier has been crossed and i am exposed
Vulnerable as ever no power to repose.

Morbid air with rotting smell of vermin
It came suddenly without any warning
And took away flooding everything i had
I am doomed and this is making me very mad.

Picture via: Gratsiography.com

Sunday 7 December 2014

I Promise to Never Regret


I promise I will never regret
Never look back and curse my fate.
For I have done what it needed to be,
It had to be like this, it's my destiny.

Missing the classes and hanging out with friends,
Now alone but it's still in my veins.
The laughter echoes like a mockingbird
But it had to be or it would never be done.

Sprouts of joy no anomaly,
Living life then setting it free.
Friends were the ones who passed by,
No regrets I had my life.

Found a girl who loved me dearly,
Held her close loved her passionately.
My mom and dad always had my back
Fulfilled my needs with whatever they had.

This moment now is all that we have,
Live it it's the end, you'll never get it back.
Have faith and praise God for he is great,
Move forward and promise to never regret.

Thanks @picjumbo for this amazing pic.

Tuesday 2 December 2014

The Jolly Faces


Dressed up in rags from top to bottom
with wide gaping holes and missing buttons.
Garbage to others which now houses their body
i see them everyday but know nobody.

When the bell rings to end my class
i see these kids screaming alas.
Filling the pavement in a few seconds
here comes the wave of the street legends.

Grabbing my pants and asking for a penny
i show them my empty pocket with no sign of any.
They don't run away but give a smile in return
like an actor having his mask being knitted.

A new face everyday with the old folk you see
happy with ragged clothes and food infected by fleas.
Their parents don't care whether they live or die
they put them to work and rest all day nearby.

One of them one day asked me in utter curiosity
'where is this place you all call university'.
Feeling bad for him i asked why did he even bother
he smiled and said ' I want a better life than this brother'.

Picture:
https://flic.kr/p/621uDA

Monday 1 December 2014

The New Girl In Class - Final Ep. Teaser

I know that you are older than me and i also know that you have faced a lot of problems in your life. I even got to know that you were emotionally hurt by some jerk you supposed to think that he liked you too. But that doesn't mean that you can't give life another chance. Maybe it was for your better sake. People say that after a stormy sea you can see the rainbow. Well you can't see the rainbow in a sunny day. Life would have been perfect then and nothing is perfect. I know that you must be thinking that i am here to take your advantage and people will say you the same. Maybe one day when you will be standing with some-one who truly deserves your love you will thank god for breaking your hurt so that you could meet the Mr. Perfect of your life. Compromises are made in life and that's an inseparable part but that doesn't mean that you compromises your sacrifices for some-one who doesn't deserve you. See a flower pollen germinates only after it gets to its mate. It falls on a lot of other flowers and ultimately after a lot of hurdles it finally gets its mate that fuses with it to give it a new life. Yes i do say that i have developed a feeling for you and i will say that i have had many crushes before but you are the first i am telling all this. Maybe tomorrow you won't be here maybe we'll never meet but maybe one day when i will become a doctor and you will come with your child to my clinic that happiness on your face would not be a disguise of your internal darkness but a screen, a reflection of all the hurdles you overcame to reach your destination.